Truth of Gold

18" x 24" Acrylic on Canvas

A really good friend of mine's friend was murdered last night. He is dead and his wife is in the hospital with multiple gunshot wounds. They had 5 kids. They were having problems. That's all I know. Today, I am grateful to be alive for I was once a victim of domestic violence. Violence is evil. It sucks the blood right out of you. My life, since being single, is simple, it is peaceful. My heart rings out for those who are victims still. Take back your life. Enjoy the sunshine. For when it rains, the sun will always appear. Love. Yet, do not love the evil ones. They cannot see the sunlight. Love for all that is good.

Slip

Dating

It doesn't take much to realize where a "date" may go. When the spark never appears, then you know. Best to move on before being totally drained. My soul is reaching elsewhere. I have to follow my heart. Made sense that I received a "friend request" on Jango from Iceland. Breathe. Do not suffocate. I need to breathe freely. The peacefulness which comes from within fulfills me totally. Life and all its beauty. Surrounded with love. Joy. Oh what a joyful world I'm in!

Interesting...d'eva's

Saturday, I showed a few paintings to the public for the first time. I displayed my collection of "Diva's" - to me that means "goddesses" - at my hair stylist grand opening. It was very exciting. It was truly just very interesting. The remarks, the enthusiasm, the awareness of others.

Sunday, I spent half the day at the "turkey show exhibition" at Opryland Hotel. It was a first for me. Turkey calls continuously calling. What was the most interesting was my date - Dan. A very polite, gentle soul, and a very country man. He introduced me to his ex-brother-in-law, Bob. If anyone has truly been following my blog, and yes, there are a few, for they remarked on this "coincidence", it is, what shall I call it....bewildering. Why is there now a lifeform, physical "Dan and Bob" in my life". No thought there. Makes total sense. The universe continues to amaze me.

I sat tonight and read emails from the other "Dan". What I most enjoyed was the fact that at that time when it was actually happening, it made no sense. Tonight, it makes total sense. So, what is soooo interesting, is time. It takes time to see clearly. Thank goodness for me, Dan was a gentle soul and knew at that time, it made no sense to me, yet, he continued with our conversations, knowing in time it would. Patience. A remarkable man. Yes, we lived in the space where there was no time.

Ancestors

18" x 24" Acrylic on Canvas

Crossroads

When one comes to a crossroad, one can either sit and become stagnant or one can cross and find a way. I choose to cross. My heart has been crying for love for so long that I've come to the crossroad of crossing over. The love which I have found deep within myself is too big to "hold out" for any one person. What's the saying, "you can lead the horse to the water hole but you can't make him drink it". Woke up to a screaming of go away. Yes, go away, leave me alone. Just because another will not choose does not mean that I will not choose myself. I am choosing. I am choosing a better path for me.

Being able to to realize and actually see with my own eyes that the world is a projection of essential reality that processes itself in the spiritual world was mind opening. Actually seeing the visible is a manifestation of the invisible takes me to a incredible, beautiful way of being. Sooo, choices. Here I am. Anything is possible.

Angels

A friend of mine was driving upstate today. He texted me that the roads were icy. I texted back telling him his angels would surround him and carry him there safely. Shortly after, I checked my email. In my daily om, a story was attached. A story about Michael, the archangel. Today is my brother Michael's birthday. He would have been 61 years old. 2 days after his sudden death back in 1995, I opened the gift under my tree from him. A box of note cards with angels on them. Do I believe in angels? Recently, I have been seeing images. As I sit and stare through 2 doors at a blank wall, I've seen black and white images forming through a billowing cloud. These images began with figures of humans. They became my ancestors. Once, it appeared as if I was flying over the earth inches from it. Was I hallucinating? No, I don't do drugs. It was the middle of day at work. Fascinating. The images I saw brought great comfort with a feeling of being surrounded in the present with the past.

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Electricity

Just got home and opened my mail. My electric bill was $464.52. Last month it was $315.76. I called NES to ask why. I was informed it was due to the cold weather. This is ridiculous. How in the world are people suppose to pay these outrageous amounts? I keep my thermostat on 67 degrees. There's still a chill in the air. NES needs to come down a notch or two.

Amazing

Baby