Kanesh-Ganesh

Not sure if this word is spelled correctly or not. Years ago, during my divorce, when I was attending a spiritual church, and the pastor "laid hands on me", I began talking in "tongues". It was pretty wild. The whole "church scene" was quite an experience for me. Anyway, last night, I watched a movie called, "Eat Pray Love". Yes, it was a "Hollywood" movie but it was very good. About a woman traveling to 3 different countries to "find herself". It reminded so much of my long journey except I didn't have to leave the country to find me. In the movie, she first traveled to Italy where "Eat" came in. Then to "India" which stood for "Pray". Lastly she traveled to Bali where she found "Love". In India, she picked up a handmade carved wooden figure. She was told it was "Ganesh" meaning removal of obstacles. What fascinated the most was the fact when I was speaking in "tongues", that was one word I spoke often. I never knew what it meant, now I do.

"Ganesh" is the correct spelling. After researching on the web, found out that both words - Kanesh and Ganesh exist - having totally different meanings. As Dan once told me, "if you are going to write, you have to know the meaning of every word".

Snow Mobiling

Anthony is coming home tomorrow for Thanksgiving break. He is now into snow mobiling. He is going to Titans' game on Sunday with his father and stepmom and possibly his sister. This takes me back to my blogs of "Moment of Truth". Those many, many blogs arrived from spending 4 hours of speaking with my ex's wife. We shared stories. They did not match up to my ex's. We confronted the truth. Something we tried 7 years ago until my ex grabbed her phone from her. He prevented our talking. The story of how I stole $30,000 of his life insurance and me and Bob blew it on cocaine still exists. His family was told. My kids were told. It was a lie. Truth comes out. My ex was the lie. The truth reveals the lie.

Betty - Shaved Naked

Betty

Shaved naked finds delight

Betty

In the house

warm and cozy

rain pounding down

The air is crisp

moments tight

words unspoken

from the still of the night

expectations fail

from promises delayed

the warmth of my heart

brings a start

start of a new day

never delayed

expectations fail

the love within

wins

clearing

cleaning

shaved

naked

as a new day

promises forgotten

the invisible hand

mends

again

as the stir of a note

tuning in

let peace be known

as a friend

my soul rests

as my desires heighten

dreams come true

as one imagines