Beauty of Truth

Is this real

or is it a dream

a photoshoot

a video interview

trying

desperately

to keep it real

yet

feeling the crossing over

to another world

a world

where I never imagined

I learned to paint

through grief

through heartache

what pleasures

might that bring

at the time

none

The poetry

flowing from my mouth

the visions

entailing in my eyes

Never once

did I imagine

reality

It is happening

my paintings

coming to life

revealing

heartbreak

violence

ugliness

to only find beauty

in this moment

A moment

which may be a lifetime

yet

yes

it is real

I only humble myself

to accept it

to embrace it

to cherish it

with all my heart

life really is good

Nature's Beauty

16 x 20 Acrylic on Canvas with Glitz & Peacock Feathers



One of our nurses at work has a patient who has peacocks.  When they shedded their feathers, the patient gave some of them to our nurse.  She, in turn, gave some to me.  I was delighted!  At first, I thought I would paint the feathers on canvas, but then realized,  the beauty of them could not be painted on canvas.  Only the feathers themselves magnitude their beauty.  This pic was taken without a flash.

I took this pic with the flash.  For me, I see such beauty in both images. 

Showcase

"My first painting I sold - 2007"

I am having my first showcase September 20, 1912 at the Mercy Lounge here in Nashville.  If anyone out there who has been following my art is interested, please buy a ticket at the following link:
https://rawartists.org/magicinthemoon

Dream Catcher

16" x 20" Acrylic on Canvas

This painting came from my daughter's tatoo, "a dream catcher".  I re-created it in my own version.  I think the idea of a dream catcher, in Cherokee eyes, is to catch the bad dreams, from entering while sleeping.  I think dreams are not real.  They are parts of our past hidden.  I can watch some silly movie and dream sorts about it at night.  I don't dream often, mostly only after watching t.v. 

To be in a dream state seems unreal.  I read somewhere that when you don't dream, is when you are actually connected to the divine.  The next morning is quatum leap.  Been there, done that.  Oftentimes still am.  I don't know the meaning of life, I don't know how to control one's life, I don't know what life beholds.  But I do know, that I love living.  I love loving.  I do the best I can and sometimes not.  I have many, many dreams in my head.  I can only humble myself to appreciate them.  Just the fact that I actually "dream" about a future, is good for me.  On the flip side, I am totally happy with today, with everything I have and everything I don't have.  I have the young, I have the old, I have the now.  To me, I have everything I need and whatever life brings me is just a bonus.  Dreams.  When I graduated from the 8th grade, our theme song was "To Dream The Impossible Dream".  I don't want to dream it, I only want to live it.  If I am lucky enough to realize the impossible dream, I have to say, I already am.  Life is beautiful. 

My paintings.  A touchy subject for me.  I have never been an artist. I started painting after I met Dan and that went to hell.  My paintings revealed all that I felt at the time.  I don't know what they mean but I do wish they might help someone else.  I continue to paint for the glory of the art itself.  My "impossible dream" would be to show my art to others and others to understand the meaning for themselves.  I am just a simple being.  My art amazes me.  I love colors.  I love expression.  The freedom of expression.  Years witheld of being free.  Might not be beautiful to all, yet it is to me.  Freedom.  Ahhhhh...just breathe it!

Here is my son...the "trout catcher".  17 inches. 

And this is the buck who met him on his way home after fishing!

The stillness of the evening

the beauty of the nature

whispers

love

calling

dwelling

purifying

water

drenching

my heart reaches out

to the beauty of nature

mountains

which do not need to move

soak my soul

of a love everlasting

within

 

A young mother gives birth

to her second child

two months early

the baby arrives

and attached to a breathing machine

24 hours later

the baby dies

what's the point in that

There is a reason

so they say

why things happen

this way

Fishing for answers

in the cool springs

of the mountains

Acceptance

of something

that just wasn't meant to be

What's the point in that

Life is precious

if only for a few hours

the child was born

leaving behind

truths to be found



All Sounds Off

All sounds off

listening to the tune of the universe

All sounds off

the magic button on the cell phone

leaving all sounds off

Mowing the grass

only hearing the sound of  lawn moyer

thoughts popping up

throughout my brain

meaningless thoughts

random thoughts

hear and gone today

All sounds off

choosing when to hear

choosing

a choice

always

that beloved choice

All sounds off

when the body is tired

and ready for rest

Turn the switch

all sounds off

Tomorrow is another day

today

I chose

all sounds off

Beauty of Love

To love is a gift

To forgive is a gift

The beauty of love

flourishes all of life

The freedom to be oneself

magnifies

expands

through time

Time stands still

when all is quiet

and the world is resting

Nothing else exists

except love

Magic In The Moon



To find the truth

One has to hurt

One has to love

One has to accept

I loved my ex

with all my heart

until

the day the heart

was broken

Too many bad words

too many bad times

too many wounds to heal

I left

in my mind only

yet

I left

I found a fantasy world

yet

he found a real world

which destroyed me

totally

destroyed me

The wounds won't heal

with what one calls a "penance"

yes he was catholic

now finding his way

as something other

My better way of

snawling at a religion

Wounds will only heal

if one faces the truth

don't blaim it on the father

just heal

and accept

I made a mistake

don't

know why

yet today

You kissed me

Let bygones be bygones

explanation made

Today

I love you

That's all I have to say

Other than

don't yell at me

Yes

I am the yin to your yang