My daughter Beth, her proper name, Mary Elizabeth, had her wisdom teeth removed today. It has been a day of removing/replacing gauze, with the addition, of ibuprofen and pain pills, timing. It was also a day of discovering. Discovering how people's lives intertwine. Receiving "flesh and bones" and "friends and lovers" emails from my friend, Bill. Discovering freedom of spending time with my young, married friend. Taking in the young, the old, and all the inbetween. Shifting realities. Discovering the difference in the old (wise) and the young (learning). What's left inbetween? No spaces left. Tuning was brought up by my friend Bill.
Now, my home is filled with teenagers. There is so much love surrounding us. Love, an essential, just like freedom. Freedom to "choose" that love.
And yes, my ex paid his half of the cost of the surgery, irregardless to his wife's wishes. Perhaps it has to do with "child support review", TN law stating that child support is to be reviewed once a year, listing any unpaid medical bills, and withholding income tax return money if there are any unpaid medical bills, (which happened once before) or perhaps it has to do with being human. Does one act upon the law, or upon being human? At this point, I have to wonder, what so called "hillbilly " is really out of their mind, yet knowing why. Again, I lived that life. I "chose" to go to the other side. The side of truth, the side of beauty recognizing "darkness" when it appears.
Nope - couldn't do it. Do not desire to be "attached" with so much heavy negative "space". Overwhelming for me - kinda like shaking off that which is no longer needed. It had to go.
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