Where I Was...

When I think about where I was

and where I want to be

the memory takes me back

exactly to where I was

It  wasn't a good place

it wasn't even a safe place

it was a financial place

where money was no problem

When I think about where I was

and where I want to be

I remember

the longing

for love

Forgiveness has set in

yet the memory hasn't left

I know exactly where

I want to be

Financially

not a happy place for me now

yet

Emotionally

again

forgiveness set in

but

I don't want to be

where I was

Timelessness

discovered

love

Love in a place

where love truly exists

within myself

To love oneself

is a job

a daily job

where all others

expose you

disclose you

yet

you learn

it is ok

to be yourself

I remember
how it felt
to be
unloved
by you

Today...

Ecstasy

I experience

daily

Remembering me

and where I

wanted to be

The rememberance

of a love

still burning

I

remember

the kiss

 the yearnings

the desire

which swept me off my feet

taking me away

from all

that use to be

One day.....

you will find your way

back to me...