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I don't cry often but I cried this morning. I've been up since 1:00 a.m. I had to go and get my 17 year old daughter from the police. She was in a car which had been pulled over at 12:03 a.m. Again, she was caught out past curfew. Luckily, they released her to me. The overwhelming feeling of being a "single mom" took hold of me this morning. Am soooo tired of being the only being responsible for her. Her dad doesn't do shit. Hasn't since he left 7 years ago. So what did I do. I called my mom. She will be 82 years old next month. I found the relief I was searching for. Such a great feeling to be able to still talk to your mom. She said she would pray for me. Last night, my youngest son played a song my oldest son had played for us when we visited last month. It was a song about praying. The guy singing said he found church and how to pray. He prayed she would have terrible things happen to her. It was quite funny. My mom also knew the song. My son had played it for her also. We laughed and brought reality back. No, it is not fun being a single mom to a 17 year old daughter, yet, it is society and its laws which makes it hard.