No Answer

I am learning that sometimes "no answer" is the answer. You search, you wonder, and you plead wanting answers. The answer doesn't come. Then suddenly, you realize "no answer is the answer". Time, once again, to let go, and move on. One might see this as a time of loss. Yet, I find it as a time of discovery. What one might want, or might desire, is just not meant to be. A very wise man, Dan, of course, once said to me, "do not remain in the same system, you become stagnant". Stagtism, I think a word I just made up, is not a fun place to be. Am letting go of false hope, false dreams. Something that never really belonged to me. That saying, "all good things come to those who wait". Fuck it. It doesn't.