Ego-Personality

"Mother, Sinner, Saint" 18X by 24" Acrylic on Canvas
Yes, I do believe this is one of my favorite paintings. Being a single mom, and with a history that one might have problems with, I am all that. I am a mother, sinner, saint. I know I am not perfect, but I know I am doing the best I can. Afterall, there is no father figure, never has been. What exactly is perfect?

It seems the "killing of the ego" is not a friendly place to be. For, if one kills their ego, their personality, then they are not who they are. I've kinda gotten attached to my "ego", my personality. It appears to me that you kill the "ego" which tells you it is not "alright" to be who you are. I can only be me. I tried walking that path where "acceptance" to everything is the way to go. Yet, it only made me miserable. For I am me. I was not designed to be someone else. I much prefer to walk in my own shoes, wherever that may lead me.

After reading this post again, and answering my question of "what is perfect?", it came to me that we are all perfect, exactly the way we are. Thankfully, I saved and printed the many emails from Dan when I was "morphing" through all these questions. In one of my favorites, this is what he wrote, "When one discovers the divinity inherent in being, its a wonder why people so often look (in vain) for it elsewhere. This is part of the problem with thinking that animals, for instance, are dumb or inferior to humans...exactly how (and more importantly, WHY) would an all-knowing deity create something stupid? (hint: animals, plants and minerals are parts of the divine body too...they do different things than what humans do...and hold on Bessy, what they do is not inferior, just different. We're all in this together.) How can stupidity be intelligently designed? (this applies to body parts too, once you accept that our bodies are temporal (determined by time) ie temporary".